Rearrange

I haven’t written anything in a couple of days and I was starting to fear I was going back to the same old trench hole I always dig myself into in little time. It is in these moments that I have a sensation of impending hopelessness that creeps towards me ever-so-gently but oh-so-destructively. But the reason I didn’t write thing is that I couldn’t think of anything worthwhile to put in the blog. Until now that is. Today I woke up, saw my vision board with my goals, and said: “Hey, is this alright?” 

I walked down the street towards my job and pondered some more. After 10 minutes of analyzing, I understood the problem. There are big goals on that mind. This is not bad. But I don’t have a plan or a course of action for achieving these goals. Because of this, I am obsessing over how I can achieve them but I stay put in the same place without being able to do shit about them. This may sound obvious, but I set my goals without thinking too much about the how because nobody actually has a perfect plan to achieve everything they want in life. 

That is one of the problems of my generation (Generation Y or Millennials). We are too afraid of taking a step because we don’t know what the future has in store for us. So we are paralyzed by the sheer amount of possibilities that could impend doom for our plans. After learning, I rearranged my focus towards my more achievable goals of the year. This way, I won’t obsess over something too crazy that is out of my control. Or at least, so I hope. 

♫ Just think about it Lately I've been skeptical
Silent when I would used to speak
Distant from all around me
Who witness me fail and become weak
Life is overwhelming
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
Id love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down

But you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain
Because you know it all and I guess things will never change
But you might need my hand when falling in your whole
Your disposition I'll remember when I'm letting go of ♫

Re-Arranged - Limp Bizkit