Routine Vs Chaos.

Have you ever felt like you are in a never-ending loop? Waking up, going to work, going back home, sleeping, and so on? Time is moving, but we are stuck. This feeling of monotony is unending. Is uncomfortable. I want to break it. But, I actually don’t want to break it. Why? Because our daily routines are our way of mitigating the risk of our daily lives. We don’t want to be in an unexpected situation in which we will be vulnerable to some kind of harm. The routine is used as a medicine to chaos.

But in chaos lies opportunity. I have already threaded the ground I am in right now. I have a good grasp of what is going to happen to me later in the day unless chaos shows its head. This lack of change could easily mean I will be stuck in my current cycle forever more until the day I breathe my last breath. That is scary. My routine consists in trying to spend a little money as possible. I rarely take transportation. I walk long distances to save money. I look for the cheapest food available that doesn’t poison me. I try to live.

But I don’t want to live like that forever. I have dignity. And still being depressed as I might be sometimes, I like to say I love myself. I don’t want to look pathetic. I want to change the cycle. I want to break my current routine for a better quality of life. In Post Malone's own words, I want to “Go Flex”.

♫ Man I just wanna go flex
Gold on my teeth and on my neck
And I'm stone cold with the flex
With my squad and I'm smokin' up a check
Man I just wanna go flex
Gold on my teeth and on my neck
And I'm stone cold with the flex
With my squad and I'm smokin' up a check ♫

Go Flex - Post Malone

P.S. - (I want a better quality of life)