Unstoppable Storms.

You know what is fun? Looking for the reason of things. Looking for the meaning in a way. I have been trying to take an introspective look into why things happen to me or why I want this or that. A few days I said I wanted money to pay my debt because I felt that I was stagnant in time without being able to move forward. That is a horrible feeling. But today I woke up and found out another reason. It is not only because time is running out for me, but also time is running out for my family. My parents especially. 

My parents are aging. There will come a time in which they won’t be able to fend for themselves. This perfectly normal. But tell me, does it make it any less easy? Imagine one day your mother and your father will need your help and you won’t be able to provide it. You won’t be able to buy their medicine because you don’t have the money and so on. This is terrifying. This is a storm. An Unstoppable Storm which I am trying to fend off with my bare hands by looking for a way to produce more money. 

So far not much luck there. But I will keep looking. For there is no bigger suffering than knowing about a coming danger and not doing anything to prepare for it. Prepare for the storm. 

♫ And after the storm,
I run and run as the rains come
And I look up, I look up,
On my knees and out of luck,
I look up

Night has always pushed up day
You must know life to see decay
But I won't rot, I won't rot
Not this mind and not this heart,
I won't rot

And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for

But there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair ♫

After the Storm - Mumford & Sons