The Fading of the Spirit.

The sensation of your high spirits fading away is really depressing. You can feel that all the hype that you had one day due to whatever reason is seeping right out of you. And you don’t know how to stop it. You try putting up smiles. You try to refocus again and again in the things that gave you that sudden feeling of adrenaline, making you feel like you are invincible and that everything is going to be alright. But nothing seems to stop this uncomfortable feeling. 

This is why I say you can’t demand people to stay positive 100% percent of the time. For me, at least, feels like trying to force myself into something that is outside of my control and will only end self-destruction which will produce the oh so familiar feeling of depression. So I just wonder how I can “recharge” my spirits and cheer up. Should I buy cake or ice cream and gobble up? Should I buy new stuff to distract me from my discouragement? I think the answer to that is no. 

In my opinion, and I talk from personal experience, the ignoring or the distractions we partake to avoid facing the feelings we have inside will make the inevitable much more disastrous when it crashes on our faces. I suggest we do something that has meaning. Talk to a friend and foment a relationship. Talk to your family and tell them you love them. Work something that will actually have fulfilling results for you, like studying a new language or a side hustle to get a little bit more money. Do something so you don’t wallow in the depression.

♫ Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay

There's always some reason

To feel not good enough
And it's hard, at the end of the day

I need some distraction

Oh, beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins

And maybe empty

Oh, and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here ♫

Angel - Sarah McLachlan