When You Feel That Your are Powerless.

Desires abound in my mind. I wish for things to change. The change I seek sounds and looks so pure inside my imagination that it makes reality seem like an evil being plotting against me on every step I walk. I look for the change thinking that because is coated with a veil of goodwill brought upon by my own machination, what I want will inevitably become mine with the pass of time. But nothing could be farther from the truth. 

No matter what I do, the world is indifferent to my needs. Instead, it tries to cater to the general population of society to give comfort to the majority instead of a single few. And this is not wrong. I am no king. And who am I to say that my needs a greater than the ones from some else? Especially when I don’t know what other people have suffered, or worse, what they currently are suffering. My desires are not the greater good the world is so desperately in need, and so I must respect my current circumstances.

But for the sake of my sanity, I will show and express openly my pain. The pain that brings being powerless. I am drowning in debt. I hate it, and I want to pay it now or as soon as possible. I want to end this and become strong. I want to have the strength to take on a difficult life and triumph over it. And this is what I seek. Being powerless might live me breathless, but it won’t live me hopeless. I refuse to say that my current self will remain powerless. I will extract the first 5 letters of that word and make it my own. God willing with Godspeed.

When You Feel That You Are Worthless.

May this text never find eyes that show interest in it except my own, for I have made all the little pieces of information in this blog primarily for myself so I can fight the crippling depression and sea of horrendous emotions that swell in me. But if by mere coincidence or divine providence, a soul takes solace in this or any text of my blog, may this puddle of information give that soul some peace of mind. That is one of my sincere wishes. 

Yesterday was hard. I didn’t meet some metrics for my job and now I am not gonna get my full salary at the end of the month. Or to be more transparent, I won’t get the full incentives which are part of my salary. This hurts me deeply, for I need every cent I can to survive and pay what I owe. This makes me feel beyond worthless. I feel like if feces would be a more pleasant sight than seeing my own reflection in a mirror. It’s hard just to make eye contact with myself sometimes. 

But as I see my hands and understand my existence in the reality of this world, I want to fight this worthless feeling. I don’t want to live in the ground eating dirt feeling pathetic. I have people that I love and that even depend on me. There is much more in life than just this moment in which I am suffering to the point of torture. There has to be. A silver lining will appear God willing. My tears will dry. And in the end, I will stand tall with my shoulders on my back.

I don’t want to give up on myself. I will find happiness and peace of mind, or maybe they will find me.

How to Handle negative emotions and thoughts at work.

How do you handle negative emotions and thoughts at work? Create and repeat a mantra, count to ten, or do whatever you can to bring yourself to a level-headed state. You must not let those emotions overrun you and take over your thought process. The bitterness and impotency that these emotions bring are just too much to take. I can tell you for sure that you won’t be able to do any activity efficiently. You might not even be able to do anything.

Please breathe and focus on something more positive. Something that can make you smile. Something that can give you hope. This might save you a great lot of pain and maybe your own job. Until you find a better one of course. But respect your current place and your peace of mind. Be happy and try to create a good environment for yourself. And last, please don’t think I am saying all this because I am a positive ray of sunshine that doesn’t have any trouble.

I am a sarcastic, negative, moody person with my fair share of issues. But I want to be better.

How to Handle Desperation.

How do you handle desperation? You look for silence. A place that is so quiet that you can put your thoughts in order. So you can understand better the situation and not fall into a pit filled with your own despair. But this type of bullshit actually can also be handled with the opposite treatment. Look for a place full of sound and activities to distract you from the thing that is making you miserable. Desperation is a state brought by the loss of hope that your current situation won’t change, a.k.a. despair. 

Desperation is a leviathan that resides in the abyss of our mind waiting to swallow us whole when the chance comes. And sadly, this abyss comes with the absurd quality of exponential growth. It can become bigger than fucking Australia. So you need to fill the abyss like a miner filling a hole with rocks, sand, and earth. But instead of using those things, you will fill it with inner peace through the organizing of the proper order of your priorities or use the joy out of your activities to fill the hole and the mouth of that asshole.  

If you wish for a little comfort, I hope this verse can give you some:

🎼  So when your hope's on fire
But you know your desire
Don't hold a glass over the flame
Don't let your heart grow cold
I will call you by name
I will share your road 🎼

“Hopeless Wanderer” – Song by Mumford & Sons

How to Handle Rage.

How do you handle rage? Pour an imaginary industrial amount of Ice in your head and redirect the energy produced from your rage into something productive. Rage is one of the primal emotions we all share. We all succumb to it sometimes. This could be validated because of the circumstances or it could produce an unholy amount of bullshit for you. The consequences of uncontrolled rage are horrifying, to say the least. Like a slow but potent poison eating you away.

Now always remember that this emotion is in its purest form, raw energy. Refined it to the point of making it a beautiful piece of jewelry that will be a monument to your success. It is difficult because normally when you are angry you are totally blind to everything, even common sense. But you can do it because if even I can do it, then you can do it even more. I am writing this just moments ago from a bullshit situation. This is a jewel. Something I can be more proud of than losing my job.

🎼 Birds flying high, you know how I feel
Sun in the sky, you know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by, you know how I feel 🎼

"Feeling Good" - Song by Nina Simone

How to Handle Tiredness.

How to handle tiredness? Take care of yourself. The bullshit you might had to deal with only because you woke up like a zombie is insane. When you are too tired, overworked, or burnout, your body becomes hypersensitive. This means that your body is completely alert looking for any menace in order to eliminate it and survive. In other words, you have gone full John Wick. That sounds awesome but it is not appropriate because you are not a hit-man assassin (as far as I know). 

You are a normal person. So when you are too tired, you lash out against people, you are not at the optimal condition to work, and don’t enjoy life at all. Okay, so let’s talk about what to do when you are tired. First, prepare a proper schedule to sleep. Second, do more activities that you that are a personal enjoyment to you. Third and final, do exercise to keep your body in shape and with energy. This should enhance the levels of dopamine in your body and make you feel happier.

Remember, if you don’t take care of yourself you will end up singing this song:

🎼  YEAH, ya tryin ta tire me, tire me
I can see you in front of me, front of me
Ya tryin ta tire me, tire me
Why don't you get from in front of me?! RUH!!

WE'RE ALREADY DEAD!!!! 🎼

"Tire Me" - Song by Rage Against the Machine

How to Handle Delusion.

How to handle delusion? Face, accept, and stare at reality so hard that everyone will think you are a stalker. I hate delusions only because I am always imagining myself in a perfect place where everything is going perfectly for me. But this is nothing else except a form of escaping from my own shitty situations to Narnia. The problems of reality grows never-endingly larger the more you ignore them. Escaping to a better place in your mind only stalls the problem until it is so big you can’t ignore it. 

Okay! Excellent! Now I won’t drown in delusions anymore! Hmm... No. This problem is gargantuan and it is not disappearing any time soon. Why? Because it is natural for the mind to think of a better situation when your present situation is not ideal. So that means you are only trying to imagine what you desire to be in the now or in the future. But we can’t change our realities with the snap of the fingers. We are not Thanos.

I, for example, am drowning in debt. So it is natural that I drown myself in an illusion where I am debt-ridden, have money to spare, and start enjoying my life to the fullest. But that isn’t happening any time soon. So that illusion becomes a delusion. Nothing but an escapade to ignore my present situation in favor of the land of make-believe. This is a bullshitty situation of my own machinations. But enough of that. This blog is for helping people in general in handling bullshit. Even if that bullshit comes from your mind.

Okay, so handling this. The second sentence of the first paragraph. To achieve this, you need one thing. The magical piece of knowledge called Awareness. Be aware of yourself, be aware of your surroundings and be aware of your reality. But most important of all, try to be more happy with your reality. Even if things are not perfect, always remember, they could worsen. Furthermore, most of the time, happiness is not that far from us.

♫ Plant your hope with good seeds
don’t cover yourself with thistle and weeds♫

Mumford & Sons – Thistle and Weeds

How to Handle Anxiousness.

How to handle anxiousness? FREEZE MOTHERFUCKER. Now imagine that phrase being said by Samuel L. Jackson. Now tried to apply that to yourself. Effective, isn’t it? Anxiousness is one of the worst disruptors of peace, happiness, work, and everything good in general. The reason is that this little bastard can evolve very easily into panic and paranoia. Try doing anything in life with these 2 things on your back. I give you 5 minutes before you fuck up. 

You can’t handle that pressure. Not for long at least. So you need to calm down. Take it easy and breathe. Or get help from Samuel again. Now, anxiousness is good in small dosages because it gives you awareness of your surroundings. But controlling this emotion, this state of mind, is difficult because it can take over you without any prior notice. This is a simplistic view of a very big problem for a lot of people. But simplicity can sometimes be the best medicine for your struggling heart looking for peace…..

FREEZE MOTHERFUCKER. It is really fun imagining Samuel saying that.   

How to Handle a Critic or Reprimand.

What do you do when you don’t how to react to critic or reprimand? Well, nothing. You don’t know how to handle shit. You are angry, anxious, and feel like shit. But things will be better because the situation is not permanent. There is something that life has in spades. That thing is bad moments. They are plentiful and they occurred both by your own hand and by elements beyond your control. They suck but they might be necessary because they make you strong.

Some people say that life is all about attitude. I don’t believe that to be 100% true but they have their credit in saying that. No one can deny the charisma that is present in people with an attitude defying but welcoming of the future. So even with the bad situations that life presents you, let's embrace them, live them, and become stronger to handle them appropriately.  Life is too short to emphasize it in the bad things that happen out of nowhere.